enough

I spent a year letting go

I didn’t try to improve

Or work harder

Or longer

I didn’t go to many conferences

Or trainings

I didn’t speak

Or write

I just sat

Quietly.

I had migraines bad enough that I couldn’t see very much

And so that’s all I could do.

I worked some, but at a very different pace

I let go of pushing

I’d occasionally see posts about friends, and their big plans

New launches, and conferences, and papers

I felt joy for their new adventures

It’s great to be in the phase of growth

And yet I honor that each season has its cycle

Mine has required stillness and restraint

Sometimes trees grow beautiful flowers

Sometimes they sit in majestic silence

I’ve grown this year, in simply being able to value my non-doing self.

Because, who am I, really, if I’m not producing?

At last, I find the answer.

I am

enough.

About Cheryl Harris

Life played a funny trick on me. I've studied nutrition for years, and much to my surprise, found out that I could manage many of my health issues via diet. I've been GF for years, and I've got a bunch of allergies and sensitivities. But it definitely doesn't keep me from cooking, baking and enjoying my food. Thanks for stopping by.
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2 Responses to enough

  1. I read this yesterday Cheryl, and it’s simply beautiful, despite the painful circumstances you’ve been dealing with. I’m so sorry about the struggle and I wish I could do things to help you. I’m glad you have been able to find peace with the situation. I think of you so often. ((((Hugs))))

  2. thanks, chickadee. 🙂

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