If you have ever had a small business, you know the drill. You’ve got clients, you’re super busy…and then there’s a week that is quiet. Like, creepy quiet. Everyone seems to get sick or have their car break down or go off to a funeral.
The first quiet day was fantastic. I was loving the time to catch up and take good care of myself. And then that sense of desperation hit. What if this is forever? Can I really make this work? What if I don’t hit my targets?
Is it me? Do I smell? (long sniff). Has G been doing voodoo magic so I stay home with him?
It’s easy to go from wonderful break to overwhelm in just a day or two.
Panic=a sense of hustling and earning worth=things aren’t fun anymore
I was really grateful to see it as it was playing out, and to hang out with my discomfort without harshly judging myself. I was grateful to realize that no matter what, it would be okay.
And so I’m thankful that I do know deep down that the quiet times aren’t personal, sometimes it’s just quirky timing. It’s okay to freak out, too, from time to time…it’s just human nature.
This week, I’m glad that *just like that* work is back to its normal comfortably busy, too.
I’m also grateful for the inspiration from Elizabeth Lesser in her amazing book, “Broken Open.”
“I pray that each of us stays awake as we fall. I pray that we choose to go into the abyss willingly and that our fall is cushioned by faith – faith that at the bottom we will be caught and taught and turned toward the light. I pray that we don’t waste precious energy feeling ashamed of our mistakes, or embarrassed by our flaws. After years of teaching, I know only only a few things for sure. One is this: We are chunks of dense matter that need to be cracked open. Our errors and failings are chinks in the heart’s armor through which our true colors can shine.”